Holy Hot D*mn...
It feels SO incredibly weird to be here right now.
2020 was a messed up year, and 2021 is looking to be f*cked up too.
So I'll tell you some GOOD things that have happened in the last few years (along with some not so good things). A recap I guess?
2017 - Got married.
2018 - Separated
2019 - Started seeing someone amazing after having done a LOT of searching of sorts and getting to know who I am as a person and spending a lot of time with myself. Divorce was official. Work was insanity, lots of people left. Published not 1, but 2 books.
2020 - Spent 1 year with partner. Got new job. Messed up my back and had nearly 2 weeks off work after having been there a MONTH. Thankful I still have job, feeling valued because my supervisor would ask how I was when I called to ask about work and when he saw me physically back in the building. Higher ups who I haven't spent time with know my name. I feel this is very weird. Made new friends, kept in touch with some old ones, reconnected with some old ones. Got upset with a friend or two. Had some family members die during the year.
Partner's mother died. We got engaged. Utter insanity. Lots of questioning things. Tons of stress from all sides of things.
Spent New Years Eve and a few days after with my fiance.
I'm not sure how often I'll be on here, but I might try to be better about it. Life is crazy. Hope you're all well.
~H
Things Changed!
Wow this place looks different since the last time I logged on...
Basically things have changed in my life. I can't remember what all I've said before, but the highlights from the year currently...
- started seeing an amazing guy
- my first book will be released on October 23rd, 2019
- my second book will release on December 23rd, 2019
- I'm in a good place right now
My shortest update ever. x.x Peace all.
~Heather/Razor/Shavor
Feeling Ancient
I'm feeling ancient. My 10 year high school reunion happens this year. TEN YEARS YOU GUYS!!! I graduated HIGH SCHOOL TEN YEARS AGO!!! *faints* F*ck!
We still don't know exactly what we're doing, but it's going to happen in a handful of months. I'm looking forward to some of the people I KNOW are going to be going. We'll see if they show though. It'll be nice to spend some time catching up with some of the folks I went to school with, but others... I'm not looking forward to seeing some of the other "familiar" faces. Cue an eye roll here.
Life is... Going well overall I think. I've reconnected to parts of myself that I had lost. I've been exploring more of my mentality.
In 2 days last week I baked like 10 DOZEN cookies. X.X They turned out awesome though.
Hopefully I'll have more updates for you later on. This week, this month... Something like that. Hoping for sooner rather than later.
~Heather/Razor/Shavor
Still Here, Still Standing
There was... a lot that happened in 2018. Some good, a lot of bad. I'm trying to stay hopeful and positive in 2019 and so far it's been... Good, but not easy. Just wanted to let you all know I'm still around, and still standing. I thought this song was good. I enjoy the song in general, but it seems fitting for today in particular.
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I've always had a lot on my mind, but at the moment I'm stuck in the mode of wondering about a certain topic. Namely, relationships and desires. I have a LOT of thoughts on these topics as of late and it... Kind of drives me nuts some days. It's one of those topics that keeps me up at night actually. If you want to know more, drop me a Note. Or you can drop me a note and ask me for my various social media outlets and contact me through those! (Or you can visit my blog page and get contact information there too.) Hope everyone is well. Peace and love all.
~Heather/Razor/Shavor
O.O IT'S ALIVE!!!
As far as Unexpected Moments has been going I'm trying to work through what I hope will be the LAST round of edits/revisions. This may not be so, but a girl can hope (and dream). I love this story, but I'm ready for it to exist and be out in the world.
For 2019 I've got a LOT of edits and writing planned. I'm looking at:
- Editing/revising 3-6 stories
- NaNoWriMo in November
- I'll be participating in both Camp NaNoWriMos (April and July), but I'm not sure if it'll be for editing or if it'll be for new stories.
- At some point I'll be writing short stories for 4 characters who were in my NaNoWriMo project from this November (One Rainy Night). These stories will be for the four other brothers that the story did not center around. I'm seriously excited about one of the stories! Well... I'm really excited about two of the stories, but one moreso than the other. He's the reason I'm doing this and I'm not sure if his story will be the last one of the four that I write or if it'll be the first, but that's another issue anyway.
- Writing more poetry
- Dealing more with my blog and Wattpad
As far as personal life things... The only thing I'm going to share at the moment is that I'm thrilled because I haven't chewed my nails since my birthday (almost 2 months!) and while I'm stressing about some things I haven't had anxiety or panic attacks for about a month and a half. I haven't had massive issues with anxiety or panic. I feel like this is due to a few changes that I've made this year. I'm learning to let go more. And I'm learning to put myself first more. Does this mean I'm turning into someone who is self-centered and who doesn't help people? Fuck no. It means I'm learning when to step back.
I have goals for 2019 already.
- Read 50 books (a massive cutback from the 200+ that I read this year)
- Publish 1-3 stories
- Write more poetry
- Love myself
My priorities have shifted this year. A lot. And they'll likely keep shifting in the months to come. I'm doing a better job of taking time for myself. And I'm enjoying it. The changes that have come my way this year have, for the most part, been what I needed in my life.
Now, I'm off to get some reading in. I have a feeling there's a cat who might jump into my lap as I read. Hope you're all doing well. Peace for now, folks.
~Heather/Razor/Shavor
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